I will write some school/work updates. But first, I want to share something personal. Because I consider myself an alcoholic, as in I used to drink to the point where it interfered with my life and my health and my relationships, I am hyper aware of when I choose to drink now, and how responsibly I do it. It's a Friday night, the beginning of Spring break, and I am choosing to have some beer and wine. I went to the liquor store for cigarettes and considered some vodka then declined it because I know that would just make me feel ill. And although I intend to get a 'little' drunk tonight, I do not wish to make myself intoxicated to the point of illness, as I have done in the past. Thankfully, I still have memories and am able to compare my intake and frequency and know that I am definitely not that same person anymore. That person who would go to the store after work and get a six pack of PBR and a bottle/box of wine and drink it all the same night. I was just thinking about all of this and wanted to write it down. I am grateful I am different, but also that I can enjoy some drinks once in a while now, and not feel like I need to do it on a daily basis. Peace.
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