I went to the gym last night instead of taking a nap and did so many arm workouts! It was good but made me so sore that I couldn't sleep. I literally kept tossing and turning. I was also worried and thinking so much about what happened yesterday. I was concerned about a student who in my estimation was on drugs. He had physical and mental signs of it, but they were subtle. I had wanted to talk to the teacher about it but never had a quiet opportunity. And then at the end of the day there were three people in the room discussing someone else and I was on my way out, but just was going to wipe the table first and the teacher told me to just leave it, but I was like, uh, I just sprayed this paper towel and am about to wipe the table, which would take about five seconds, and my eyes just watered up and I left the room and then she came out and said they were talking about some student and it was confidential. I said, in the time it took you to stop me and tell me that, I could have wiped the table off and been out of their way. Also, if it was so private they shouldn't have started their meeting until I was done. Also, of course I respect student confidentiality and would not repeat anything I hear. Also, they were only saying the student was chronically late, which I was already well aware of. I didn't tell her all that, I was embarrassed that I was crying. But she can speak rudely and harshly often and has even made a kid or two cry, so I wasn't feeling like she was being mean to me personally, just that she wasn't being reasonable and spoke thoughtlessly. I also had a negative experience with another kid who acts like he hears voices and is talking back to them and will rarely respond when spoken to. I think he is exhibiting signs of schizophrenia, but obviously I don't have any clinical knowledge about that, and it could be the way he presents his autism. Though I don't even know for sure he has autism. They don't really tell us details about students, or else maybe they don't know. He reminds me of someone who has had a serious concussion and is very forgetful and dazed and unsure who people are or what words mean anymore. I feel both worried about him and upset that I don't know how to work with him. He doesn't seem to mind being read to so I could do that. But when he is in class he is expected to do what everyone else is doing and it's just so tiring and frustrating to try to get him to do that. I guess I shouldn't work with him if he drives me that nuts. I pick up on his weird energy and it makes me feel all buzzy. I hope that makes sense somehow.
Today was a free day and I used it to sleep. It's the observation of Veteran's day which is really tomorrow the eleventh. Steve put on Red Dwarf for me, which I thought was not on anymore, or just repeats, but turns out there was a reboot like over twenty years later and it's new and improves, and I really, really liked it! Very funny and cool space show. Red Dwarf XII is very good stuff! They even referenced Doctor Who by saying Wibbly Wobbly Time thingy, which made me laugh since Doctor Who also underwent a major reboot transformation. And is coming back next year with the first ever female Doctor Who! I mean, that is really massively exciting news. When I'm sad, I need to remind myself of that! Another British time-travel comedy that we have been watching is called Zapped. It's very creative and unusual. Taking place in an alternate dimension that is magical and also reminiscent of Medieval times, a not so bright office worker called Brian has gone through a wormhole and is having adventures while camped out at the local pub with his new mates, sometimes attempting to find a way back home.
Tomorrow I get to go to a meeting again at Dress for Success, and to see 9 to 5! I hope. PEACE.
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