Good Job Hunting

      I just realized that in a couple of weeks I will have been unemployed for one year. This awareness brings many connotations and questions along with it; such as: am I employable? Am I doing something very wrong on my applications? Am I trying hard enough? Do I even care? These are ideas I think I should spend some serious time contemplating instead of treating them as passing thoughts with no significant relevance. Oftentimes you need to be your own therapist and ask the tough questions in order to get to the root of your debilitating mental blocks that may be stopping you from accomplishing your goals in life. The hardest part may be figuring out what the right questions are ... and being willing to be self critical enough to take responsibility for the choices you have made that led you to where you are today. Here's a scene from the film Good Will Hunting where the main character played by Matt Damon is asked by his court appointed therapist played by Robin Williams: "What do you want?"

      I haven't checked my e-mail for several days, and there may be something relevant waiting for me there, but I did receive a voice mail (several days after it was sent–reminding me of my miss/fail with the post office interview) from a temp/seasonal position I applied for a week or two ago with the City. I don't even know what job it was; I should really write these things down; I just know I had a flurry of motivation and determination one day and went on an online application spree, and applied to at least six jobs, one or two of which were for the City. I called the person back and left a message apologizing for missing their call and asked that they please call me back (on Steve's phone this time) if the position was still available. Meanwhile, I have a car that needs fixing, an apartment that needs cleaning, and e-mail that needs checking. And ... questions that need formulating; and answering.